I am the noise of everything you know, the sound of everything you don’t. I am the music of everything you wish you knew.
I am the constant beat of your heart as it thrums my name, the trickle of sweat down your back as you contemplate my intention, the synapses firing in your head as you appreciate my virtue. I am the mystery you want constantly surprising you.
I am the hand that feeds you, the light that guides you, the rod that beats you.
I am the voice in your head telling you to go for it. I am the whisper in your ear warning you to be on your guard. I am the unsuspected traitor to your cause.
I am your calling, the one you will live for, the one you will lay down your life for, the one you will kill for. I am the one that can kill you.
I am the reason you can’t let go, the reason you want to stay. I am the addiction you try your hardest to shake off, the indulgence you want to keep for yourself, the sin, the catastrophe, the calamity. I am evil.
I am the reality you never thought possible, the life you wake to see today, the existence that renders you speechless. I am the place you know you belong, the home of the damned and lost. I am the sacred, the holy, the blessing. I am good.
I am the elusive, the hiding.
I am the unafraid, the confronting.
I am the before. I am the beyond. I am everywhere all the time.
I am the marriage of worlds, the divorce of reason and emotion, the land of hypocrisy, the haunt of millions, the envy of billions, and the love of all. The empty canvas, the crowded mind. The contradiction, the verification, the juxtaposition. I am everything that makes sense and I am nothing that makes sense.
I am the dark that invades your dreams, the magic that makes you soar, the force that sends you spiralling back down. I am the power that grounds you.
I am your merciless master, the one who’s got you wrapped around my finger, pulling all the strings, demanding, bullying, asking, the one who keeps taking and taking and taking.
I am the slave to your every beck and call, the grantor of your whims, your fancies, your wildest dreams, entertaining, obliging, enabling, pandering, the one who keeps giving and giving and giving.
I am the wind trailing through your wings when you reach new heights, the electricity surging through your thirsty veins as you long for the best, the glimmer of stark excitement in your bright eyes as you hunger for freedom.
I am your protector, your defender. I guard your back once it’s turned, watch over you as you sleep soundly at night. I am the sense of security you think you owe to someone else.
I am the strength that keeps you afloat, I am the weakness that crushes you. I am your one, your many. Your nil, your everything. Your black, your white. Your up and down. Your in and out. I am forever your essence.
I am your days gone by. I am your days to come. I am your here and now.
I am you.
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© Amaan Khan, April 19, 2018.
That was cool…. It held my attention from the beginning and when I reached the end I read it all over again only to understand it better….. Simply splendid
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Wow I feel so happy and excited, thank you so much for that. Really, thank you!! 🙏🙏❤❤🙏🙏
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This is beautiful! I couldn’t stop reading. At first I thought the narrator was an abuser or stalker, and then you changed it and confused me, and then I HAD to keep reading. I love how you twisted it all together in the end, and how it all makes so much sense. It rings true on so many levels. Thank you for writing this!
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Wow, I am speechless. I don’t know what to say except thank you! 🙌🙌That’s really kind. I’m so glad you were able to enjoy it! Thank you for reading it. It means a lot! Much appreciated! 😁❤❤✌✌🙏🙏
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It’s well-deserved, and I was happy to read! I may not always comment, but I read all of your micro-fictions. You have a lot of talent and skill, and I sometimes think I get better just by reading your works, haha. “Learning by osmosis” is what we used to call that in high school. It still works 😉
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Wow,my goodness, thank you so much! 🙌 It feels to good to hear that. I hope I have been able to meet your expectations, and continue to do so. I’m truly humbled. Thank you for that. And youre right. We learn through osmosis. I’ve always believed and experienced that. So true. Thank you!! 🙏🙏😁😁❤
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Love it!!!!🙂
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Thank you so much!! I’m glad you do! 😁🙏🙏🙌❤
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Beautifully written prose-poetry. It speaks to me because it is musical and brilliantly intense talking about our lights and shadows. Lovely piece!
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Thank you so much! 🙏🙌 I’m happy you gave it a read and we’re able to find meaning in it! Thank you!! 😁❤✌
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You are welcome.
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😁😁🙌🙌❤❤
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That was breathtaking. I was completely hooked from the start. I loved the style and the rhythm. Every single word earnt its place. I will be sharing this on my personal FB page and Twitter if that’s ok with you 😉
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Oh my God, yes of course! That would be totally great! Thank you so much for this. You rock, thank you!! I’m glad my writing could move you like thissss 🙌🙌❤❤😁
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Good capture of how each of us has so much control over ourselves and yet we seldom exercise it in a good way. We often become trapped inside our own minds. I see you have just started following my retiredanddonunda blog. Thanks for that. There will be no new posts on this 2014/15 blog of our trip to NZ/Aus, but you are certainly welcome to read the past posts if you like. My current blog is at https://photoblographysite.wordpress.com/ if you are interested in reading. Thanks for dropping by. Allan
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That’s so true, we have very little control over ourselves. And thank you so much! I am definitely going to give it a read! Thanks! 😁❤✌🙌
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Oh my. Hey thanks so much for this! I am beyond honoured! You’re too kind 🙌🙌🙈🙈❤🙏
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This is a wonderful piece of writing – I absolutely adore how you’ve written it from first person perspective as an entity speaking, when really it is ourselves – so beautiful!! I can’t wait to read more of your micro fiction!! 😊
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Wow thank you so very much! I am so glad you enjoyed the piece!! Thank you! ❤❤🙏🙏✌🙌
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It was very good, I had to share it😀😀
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Thank you so much! I’m so honoured! 😁😁😁😁🙏🙏✌❤
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You a great writer
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And you are so so kind 🙈🙈 thank you very very much. 🙌🙌🙌✌❤
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The narration, is truly emanation of Power the,words hold…Well written Amaanzahirkhan
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Oh hi, that’s awesome. That’s so kind 😍 thank you so much for that. 🙈🙈🙈🙌🙌🙌 Means alot!!!!!
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This is one of the most brilliant things I’ve ever read, such a poetic quality to it that made my body react as if it was relating to a memory, like a meditation on all the aspects of ones self. You are talented, indeed.
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Hey there. Woah, ok. I feel so humbled thank you so so much for that. 🙏🙏🙏 I am just here trying my best. I am so happy you enjoyed this piece! Thank you for reading and liking and commenting. Really appreciate it! ❤🙏😁✌✌
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